Who knew that I would write in this blog for a complete year?!(and a few days) not me, of course, and from my previous entries, though some have been moved to another blog for special reasons, it helps to look back at what the last year brought me. Living away from friends and family for the first time, to a crazy roommate, and an adventure to many places I've never been before with people I've just met. I wonder sometimes would any of this would have been possible if I never came to vegas? Drama still occurs with the usual people, but it makes us grow and see people for who they really are. I had a really fun roommate, but she felt that this place was holding her back, and she would never achieve anything
No more sadness, no more tears. Time to move forward, good bye fears. Sad songs replaced with dance, Arguments have gone out the window. I'm not the same girl no more. That person you knew before had to go
You know that weird feeling you get when you talk to someone you haven't talked to in a very long time, but it's a good feeling because you reconnect and things go friendly. Now times that by 2 because 2 people contacted me within 5 minutes of me uploading pics on facebook. They're good people, and I wont get to see them anytime soon, but it's nice to talk to an old new person that remembers you. Nobody likes to be forgotten, unless you had a really embarrassing moment and people keep taunting you over and over, and it ruins your life, and all you wanna do is crawl up in a corner in fetal position and die, but who really has been through all that? lol. I really need to expand my social circle more and reconnect with old friends. I'm very bad at keeping in touch, so i'm going to try really hard (that's what she said).
I've always wanted to go to London since I was a little girl. I use to pretend to talk in the accent, act like a proper girl, and walk around with a book on my head to have perfect balance. So I made a promise to myself that I will go to London before I turn 30. Well I may have my chance! Jess wants to go to London for Myle's Birthday. I want to tell Courtney, but she'll want to come and not return home...
Let's go back to being strangers. To a time before I knew your favorite things, your hopes and fears. I wanna lose all the trust we built between us, and forget about all the secrets we told each other. Of course when we become strangers again, you must forget everything about me, and I'll do the same. It'll make things easier for the both of us, especially me. Forget about how we met, what you first thought about me, and how we stay connected. Why should we be strangers? It's because I've fallen into a dark place where the light can't penetrate though. My eyes are now watery, and tears constantly fall down my face. I can't even cry correctly because I lose my breath each time I shed a tear. Is my heart broken? Am I emotional? Was it something you said or did? I'm not even sure if this is worth crying over, and why I am crying so hard over it. So let's go back to being strangers and lets not even know the other person existed, because we were a little more happy before we knew each other right?
I've fallen into a dark place where the light can't penetrate though. My eyes are now watery, and tears constantly fall down my face. I can't even cry correctly because I lose my breath each time I shed a tear. Is my heart broken? Am I emotional? Was it something you said or did? I'm not even sure if this is worth crying over, and why I am crying so hard over it. I'm not meant to be seen or heard, but I can't stay away or have a thought that doesn't involve your name or face.
I know i love him. I smile for the first time when i see his name. I laugh a little louder when i hear his jokes, and fall harder for him, each time we talk. Does he love me? No. I'm just the girl that's around when he needs me. That late night call when he can't sleep. The shoulder to cry on when he's hurt. The body he wants when he's in the mood. That's the only girl I'll ever be. So should i be happy that I'm his friend, or that's all I'll ever be is just his friend?
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